day 61

hurm..today is not like 2days ago..

if two days ago i managed to chat to her,today nope.

i miss her.but,i just assume that she's busy working.

is okay..

it's been a while since we last met,

did you ever missed me?if not much,a little would do.but,i miss u so much.

i always hope that you are doing well and fine. every seconds and minutes.

i want you to be happy.

i am not a loser.

i am a lover.

a lover who really want to laugh with you,share all the best moments @ sad ones with you..

end up, I am here all alone..thinking of you every moments.

Thanks for giving me the reasons to keep trying to win your heart..

even i don't know what is the ending.

i really miss u

little smiles

bangun je pagi,terus solat subuh n doa apa yang patut.

not to forget,my prayer to her.the same line,the same feelings and the same name.

i really miss her a lot.

so,i sms her "morning,miss u".

a simple sms wont harm,right?

as usual i know that she wont reply me,and it is okay as long as she knows that i am still feeling the same way for her.

and today i added her little sister in FB. and I chatted with her and I could say that her little sister did help me to know more about her family.

thanks to her.

and I also did chat with si gadis dalam FB. a short time but worth it.

day 58 and counting. i really miss u si gadis

is it

day 57 and I was on silent mode for the past 4days..

and I think I have to start accepting the fact that she have no intention of sms@contacting me.

maybe I am just not good for her.maybe..ya Allah,if this is the test for your servant,I am accepting it willingly. I never been hurt like this before. Never been ignored like this before.

Last night I tried to forget all the things about you but I guess I am not strong enough to do so.

I went to Serdang,went to Shah Alam for the sake of keeping myself busy and forgetting you. But, I can't do it. I am such a loser.

I know that there's a saying "If you love somebody,let them go. If they come back to you,it is real love. If not,just forget about it".

That's what I am trying to do. She said that she needs time. I have given her time and space. And I will just wait whether I am her lifetime partner.

Am I being too selfish by thinking of wanting some commitment?

Ya Allah, please open her heart for me, let her think of me, remember me, care for me, love me like I always do for her.

diam

day 54 and 55..

ariel just diam je..and give you the time that you needed..

no sms,no calls and no on9..

as maybe you deserve it..a time without my stupid sms...

thanks Allah for giving me the strength and will to overcome my feeling..

i miss her but i must learn to give space to people.

ya Allah,bukakanlah pintu hati nya pada ku,bagilah dia rindu aku,sayang aku,kasih aku,cinta aku dan sentiasa ingatkan aku..satukanlah kami berdua..aminn

sengaja or tidak?

today is day 53.

Ariel kat umah abg hari ni.then,bangun pagi terus teringat somebody.somebody yang ntah ingatkan ariel or tidak.so,I just try my luck to call her.using my bro's fixed line phone. And, I was surprised to hear your voice. A voice that I miss so much. A very short yet keeps me smiling all day long. Crazy right? I am the only person feeling it I guess while her feeling towards me not yet confirmed.

Am I crazy?Yup, I am crazy for you.

Dear, if you could just feel the same way as I am feeling, I wonder what would happen.

Dear Allah, please let her falls for me, remember me, love me, care for me and not forgetting me as I really love her.

wedding day

today is day 52..

arini i attended Na's wedding..cousin aku yang rapat ngan aku..

happy tgk orang dah kawin..wish that she's here..

hurm,how could i ever imagine it?she don't even remember me I guess?

Am I hoping too much?

Ya Allah,tolonglah hamba mu ini ya Allah

khutbah

today is day 51..

hari jumaat and as usual kena pergi ke masjid utk solat..

there's a very interesting point I got from the khutbah, tidak akan datang kiamat itu sehingga nisbah lelaki kepada perempuan ialah 1:50.. sekarang nisbah lelaki kepada permpuan is 1:20 if not mistaken..tak lama ag akan datang lah 1:50 tu..

dah tak lama nak kiamat,and mungkin si gadis memang nak aku tunggu sampai tu baru nak beri peluang pada aku..entah lah..ya Allah,kuatkan lah hatiku untuk dugaan ini..

i really miss u

50th day

today is the 50th day since I last met you girl..Hope that i'll live a day shorter than you so that I wont be sad when you are no longer by my side. I miss you dear!!

time needed

setelah terasa hati dengan si dia,aku berdiam diri selama dua hari.

today is that 2nd day.

tadi time tgh kuar dengan housemate,tetiba dapat message dari si gadis.

I need sometime to breathe...masa yang dia pinta..

ya,akan ku berikan dia masa..ambil lah seberapa masa yang kau perlukan wahai gadis..

bismillahi,wallahi,lillahi watallahi..tak pernah aku lupakan kau dalam doa2 ku..

tak pernah aku lupakan kau dalam hari2 ku.

ya Allah..berikanlah dia kesihatan yang baik dan temukanlah jiwa kami berdua ya Allah.

aku sesungguhnya amat sayang padanya..

amin ya rabbal alamin.

bukakan lah pintu hati nya pada ku, bagilah dia sentiasa teringatkan aku, wujudkanlah perasaan kasih dan sayang nya pada aku, semaikanlah benih cinta dalam hatinya pada aku..sesungguhnya aku ikhlas pada mu xxxx ..

maybe

semalam dapat call si gadis..

si gadis angkat call and cakap about 20seconds jer..

even it is just a few seconds,but it meant a lot for me.

but,she was rushing for her dinner that time and asked me to call her later.

I did called but,as usual,no answer.

Last night was truly a very sad night for me.

Maybe she have her own reasons. Or maybe is that she don't want to talk to me?

Ya Allah,tabahkan hatiku.

Maybe aku ni terlalu buruk pada pandangan mata dia.

Maybe aku ni seperti desperate pada pandangan mata dia.

Maybe I am too emotional in all this?

Salah kah aku meluahkan rasa apa yang aku rasa? NF,if you could just feel the same way as I feel now, would you still be the same and ignore me?

Ya Allah,mudahkan urusan ku,bukakan hatinya untuk ku,bagilah dia sayang aku,rindu aku,cinta aku dan teringatkan aku seperti mana dia aku selalu ingatkan.

Amin ya rabbal alamin

sebabnya

ada enam sebab manusia menangis iaitu kegembiraan,kesakitan,penyesalan,kepiluan,ketakutan dan tindak balas alergi..ini fakta yang I just read..hurm,if its true,I think I have 5 out of 6 reasons..

1) kegembiraan - gembira dapat peluang nak berubah jadi lebih baik dan gembirakan hati mak ayah..gembira sebab de peluang kenal dengan si gadis..gembira sebab masih punya waktu untuk berfikir kesalahan dan kekurangan diri..gembira untuk melihat si gadis gembira

2) kesakitan - sakit apabila rasa diri tak di endahkan..sakit bila rasa my feelings for her macam tak dihargai..sakit mengenangkan layanan dingin..sakit untuk fikir aku belum cukup ikhlas sayang dan kasih pada nya tanpa ikhlas kan kebahagiaannya..sakit jika memikirkan dia bersama orang lain..sakit tanggung rindu..

3) penyesalan - aku menyesal kerana mungkin bukan aku yang terbaik untuk nya..sesal kerana aku tak mampu gembirakannya..sesal kerana aku tak bersama nya di hospital..

4) kepiluan - pilu bila malam sebelum tidur,aku tak pernah lupa berdoa pada Allah supaya dilembutkan hatinya..pilu kerana rasa diri tak layak baginya..

5) ketakutan - aku takut untuk kehilangan dirinya.. aku takut untuk dengar dia cakap dia sudah ada yang lain..aku takut kehilangan dirimu wahai si gadis

mata

dari mata jatuh ke hati...milik siapakah mata ini?

silence

nothing special for today..

hanya tgk2 pic dia kat laptop jer..

yeah..i miss her..but,i'll just keep it to myself..

sometimes,people tend to ignore when somebody cares for them..but,when that somebody already away,only then they'll realize it..

nekad ku hari ni,tak nak sms or contact dia langsung..

pedih tapi biar je..

semua ni rahmat Allah :)

Ya Allah,buka kan pintu hatinya pada ku,bagilah dia sayang aku,rindu aku,kasih aku,cinta aku dan selalu teringatkan aku.. Amin..

:P

now i know why she not replying my sms..she's off to some seminar and were out of office..no wonder..hope that she's doing fine even that i wish she had even some time of her precious 24hours per day for me..i can't force her..and i wont do that..

lets see whether my heart could still handle all of this..

it hurts to see how that someone you think of all the time and care seems like ignoring you and your feelings..it's funny though i dont think of this kind of things before way back before when i was in any relationship(s).

I promise that I wont be mean and hurt anybody else who care for me.

silence hurts..

feelings by morris alberts

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vMx5p627f6I

FEELINGS  

Feelings, 

nothing more than feelings,

 trying to forget my feelings of love.

 Teardrops rolling down on my face,

 trying to forget my feelings of love.       

 Feelings, for all my life I'll feel it.       

I wish I've never met you, girl; you'll never come again.       

 Feelings, wo-o-o feelings,       

wo-o-o, feel you again in my arms.  

Feelings, feelings like I've never lost you 

and feelings like I've never have you again in my heart.      

  Feelings, for all my life I'll feel it.       

I wish I've never met you, girl; you'll never come again.  

Feelings, feelings like I've never lost you 

and feelings like I've never have you again in my life.      

  Feelings, wo-o-o feelings,       

wo-o-o, feelings again in my arms.     

  Feelings...(repeat & fade)                         

    - Morris Albert

termimpi-mimpi

hurm,semalam kamu gadis sudah kembali berdiam diri seperti dulu2.tetapi Ariel taknak bersangka buruk sebab sama gak cam last week when you just kept quiet sebab you were admitted to hospital. So, I guess that you are still not in your best health condition yet.

pedih memang pedih. risau pon memang risau. salah Ariel ke?ada benda silap cakap ke? I kept on thinking about your the whole day and I am serious if I said WHOLE DAY.even in my dreams you were there. I am not myself anymore. Semalam juga terus baca Yaasin and buat solat hajat again.

I felt better now. Kena cuba bagi ruang pada mu gadis untuk memikirkan kembali hala tuju hidup masing2. terngiang2 lagi soalan last week, "Ariel serius ke ni?sanggup nak jumpa family xxxx?" si gadis bertanya. Memang Ariel serius and it was really a good thing to hear. Hope that Allah will bless both of us,our parent and our family.

I hope that you are doing well today wahai gadis.

"I love you, not only for what you are, But for what I am when I am with you."

After that

Sekarang Ariel rasa kehadiran Ariel dalam hidup you boleh disedari. Even tak banyak tempat Ariel dalam hati mu wahai gadis, tapi cukup lah begitu. InsyaAllah, I will prove that I deserve your love.

Ya Allah, bukakanlah pintu hatinya pada ku ya Allah, berilah dia sayang padaku, cinta padaku, kasih padaku dan sentiasa mengingati ku ya Allah.

Amin..

Ikhlas

Semenjak dari tu, Ariel dah ikhlas dan tak terlalu meletak kan harapan sangat pada sesiapa. Ariel hanya ikhlas sayang dan cinta you with all my heart. If you are not the one for me, I am happy to see you with anybody that could take a good care for you. I meant it.

Maybe Allah buka kan pintu hati you to sms me a few days later with a simple HI,GOOD MORNING. it surely makes my day. memang hanya simple ucapan tu,tapi it really had an impact to me. Thanks you. And starts from that every morning your sms me and sometimes we YMed. Thanks Allah. For that moment only, I knew why you are afraid to have a relationship.

You also asked me whether am I serious to meet your parent and maybe bertunang?If you could know how I felt from the first moment I felt that something for you, you dont need to ask it again. Surely I answered I am really serious for it.

Sebab like i YMed you ; perkahwinan bukan semata2 untuk menghalalkan perhubungan, tetapi sesudah selesai akad nikah itu, maka akan lahirlah kasih sayang, perhubungan dan TANGGUNGJAWAB.

I want to be somebody that could make you smile and I want to have you by my side forever. If only we could be together, pray together, spend time together and most of all, have our family together, I am the most grateful man in this world. I believed and knew that you are a good girl and can be a good friend,mother and in-laws. Syukur pada sesiapa yang dapat memiliki hati mu wahai gadis.

what i felt

After that, I admit that I really was hoping that you'll sms me and calling me. I kept sending sms for you but only once in a while you reply. Jika 5sms yang dihantar, maybe 1 jer direply or maybe takde langsung. Memang pedih dan sedih. Dalam hati Ariel rasa, ya Allah,kenapa berat sangat dugaan ni. Aku tak pernah rasa macam ni sebab perempuan. And bila aku berubah untuk jadi yang lebih baik, aku diberi dugaan macam ni. Tapi, Ariel redha,sbb maybe ni ujian and nak tgk macam mana ikhlas Ariel pada you.

So, I made a drastic move to totally focus on Allah and buat keputusan tak nak contact sesapa dalam masa seminggu. I even wrote the status on my facebook's wall that i'll be off from facebook for 1 whole week. memang sangat drastik. Setiap masa terluang, I just pray for Allah's help and not doing anything else.

Cukup seminggu, I sms you and you replied. Alhamdulillah. But, still like 1sms per 5sms i sent to you or maybe none replied.

Ariel mula2 dah rasa sedih sangat2 tapi, I had the chance to Ym with you and you said that tak selesa dgn my sms. Hurm, the moment that u typed tak selesa dgn my sms, I felt like, teruknya aku,buat orang tak selesa dan maybe aku ni expect tinggi sangat. I told you that I understood and kurangkan sms with you with the hope that you'll be happy.

my second msg

Baca jer your reply, i am really sad that it should be like that. So, I just replied that you could give me a chance and also give me the opportunity to see your parent. And you said I could when the time is right. I still waiting for that time. I also asked you to keep asking for Allah's guidance dengan solat isthikharah,hajat dan doa. And thats what i did from the moment I first date with you until now. And it seems to work. Alhamdulillah. The second email and reply cant be published as it was too personal for you i think.

Your reply 1

As Salam,
Ariel, xxxx terharu n tersentuh sgt baca tulisan ariel ni. xxxx xtau cmne nk terus terang dgn ariel. xtau nk stat cmne? xxxx betol2 tgh runsing n tertekan. yang sebenarnya, xxxx pn macam ariel jg, berharap dpt mencari 1 hubungan y jujur. xxxx mmg ikhlas bkwan dgn ariel tp xtau sampai mana tahap perhubungan itu. bila ariel bg hadiah cincin 2, xxxx rasa lg tertekan, coz rasanye ariel serius ttg ni. jgn salah faham, bkn xxxx xikhlas bkwn, tp tgh mengenali. buat pengetahuan ariel dan dgn sejujurnya, xxxx takut kalo sbnrnya xxxx xjujur dgn aril n dgn hati xxxx sendiri. mebi salah xxxx sbb terima psahabatan ini.
xxxx nk minta maaf sgt2, n harap aril terima kembali cincin y aril bg.xxxx xnk berasa bersalah

maafkan xxxx ye

My email for you 1

balik dari kampung, Ariel beranikan diri untuk emailkan you and I did. Here is what I sent you.

My dearest xxxxx,

Assalamu’alaikum,
Ariel nak minta maaf sekiranya mail ni mengganggu xxx ; bukan itu maksud Ariel dan Ariel minta maaf sangat. Oleh itu, Ariel akan berjanji tak akan contact xxxx jika lepas ni itu yang xxxx nak.. atau itu yang xxxx decide lepas baca semua yang Ariel nak cakap di sini.

Yes, it felt like I had to say something…. Sbb takut Ariel takkan ada peluang lagi di masa depan.. Satu-satunya benda yang Ariel akan menyesal ialah bila xxx baca semua ni, ialah jika xxxx rasa tak selesa tentang apa yang bermain kat fikiran Ariel ni.

Entah macam mana, Ariel terjumpa facebook xxxx. Ariel add xxxx sbb kenal xxxx. Baca2 wall xxxx, Ariel tahu xxx ialah perempuan baik dan ingat Allah selalu. Ariel mmg betul2 tersentuh dan harap orang lain pun akan tersentuh bila baca benda2 tu. Paling Ariel suka ialah bila xxxx ajak Ariel pergi solat time kita di Times Square aritu. Ariel tahu inilah yang Ariel cari.

Do not think of me as a stalker for I am not…. and do not think of me as a playboy or a player for I am neither. Ariel berdoa yang setiap benda yang Ariel tuliskan ini hasil dari niat yang baik. Ariel tak pasti sama ada xxxx masih mencari satu relationship atau tak. If you are happy with how things are, I apologize for seemingly trying to disrupt it. I shall be happy that you have found happiness, and I pray that it will last forever for you.

Tapi if xxxx, macam juga Ariel, mmg berniat utk sesuatu yang lebih baik, then without promises or commitments, Ariel sangat berharap dapat menggunakan harapan yang jujur dan berharap kita dapat cari satu hubungan yang lebih baik dalam diri kita masing2.

Wassalam,
Mohd Khairil Adzhar

Allahuakbar

Genap beberapa hari baca yasin,doa and tahajjud, I received a sms from you. Ariel sujud pada Allah dan ucap syukur sebab masih ada lagi sikit rasa di hati you untuk reply msg. But, hanya 1-2sms sehari and I am the only one yang keep sending you sms. payah kalau dah angau ni. Tapi, takpe as I am really confident with my prayer to Allah. Niat yang baik nescaya akan dibalas yang baik.

Seminggu lepas tu, I went back to Kedah and I am totally a different person that time. Solat di awal waktu dan pergi ke masjid. I could still remember how my mum said to me, MACAM TU LAH,KAN BAGUS KALAU PERGI KE MASJID CAMNI. and I just keep smiling to her. Adik beradik Ariel yang lain tak percaya Ariel pergi ke masjid sebab b4 this, Ariel mmg akan pergi time Jumaat jer. And I said to them, manusia boleh berubah. they just smile at me.

Memang pelik orang yang selalu memberontak n tak dengar kata cam Ariel ni boleh berubah. Mesti orang ingat dah nak mati. And when I woke up to perform my tahajjud, I do it slowly and taknak bagi orang lain terjaga. Abis je solat, I could see that my mom is watching me and dia tersenyum. I know that she's happy that I've changed. If only she knew why I've changed and who made me changed, it sure is a good thing. Tapi, Ariel taknak cerita pada dia and beri harapan palsu sebab I am the only one yang rasa macam tu kat you, I guess.

Ariel bersyukur that Ariel dah berubah dan buat mak happy dengan perubahan ni,semuanya sebab satu ayat sahaja. JOM SOLAT!!itu jer ayat yang buatkan Ariel berubah totally..

My biggest mistake

On the morning of 1st April, I gave you the code and you opened it on that night. And that was my biggest mistake. You dont like my ring as you could sense that I am expecting something from you. You keep insisting that I took back the ring.

I am so sad that you felt that way and just said that you just throw the ring away as I am not going to take it back. And, Ariel pon tahu that I might not be able utk cakap perasaan ni pada you later,so i said that I falls for you and I want you to know that I fall in love with you. Maybe you cant accept that I am the rushing type of guy, gelojoh! Tapi sebenarnya, I did it as I want you to know that I am serious and dont want to be misunderstood to be only your friend. As I dont want to regret it later. Apa pun yang akan terjadi, sekurang2 nya Ariel dah cakap apa yang Ariel rasa and takkan menyesal nnt.

And after that, you seems to avoiding me. It sure makes my heart feel bad. I am really weak at that time. Memang Ariel manusia bodoh yang tak sedar diri untuk berpasangan dengan orang secantik dan sebaik macam you.

Everybody could notice that I was totally not in the right mood as I kept thinking of you. And thats the fact. Starting on that day, Ariel buat solat hajat dan baca Yaasin setiap hari.

YA ALLAH,BUKA KAN PINTU HATI DIA PADA AKU,BUATLAH DIA SAYANG AKU,CINTA AKU DAN SENTIASA TERINGATKAN AKU.

Selama itu juga Ariel solat tahajjud tiap2 pagi, and terus berdoa supaya ada harapan utk kita berdua. And until today, I never missed it.

And here it comes

After esoknya tu, I opened my facebook and saw that your birthday is just few days later (31st March, Wednesday). And Ariel propose to celebrate your birthday together with me and you agreed.

Itulah satu2 nya saat Ariel berusaha sungguh2 to make it a very special night for you. janji nak datang pukul 8pm but I was late sbb hujan and jam kat federal highway. Sorry for that.

A day befor (30th March), I bought a cake and also your gift. I dont know what to give you, but I was wondering of a ring. And that is what I bought. Time lunch plak, pergi ke Kompleks PKNS belikan bunga rose pink for you. Something that I never did before. After 5pm,went back again to pickup my roses. And I could still remember mata2 orang yang tgk Ariel kuar sambil bawa bouquet of roses at my hand kuar dari kedai. Malu mmg malu tapi, I did it for you.

After that, mandi2 and siap2 nak pergi. Dalam 740pm sampai di kedai kek and just solat maghrib di Giant Shah Alam. I prayed that it would be a wonderful night for you. Traffic was really bad sbb hujan and around 830pm camtu baru sampai. You were smiling and it fades all my problems away.

Dalam kereta, i gave you the roses that I bought you and you seems like to love it and kept saying thank you. I feel so happy that moment. We headed to Menara Tinjau and have our dinner there.

It sure is a wonderful restaurant. We could see the city of Kuala Lumpur dari atas bukit and then there was that unforgettable moment for me (or maybe you). Tgh2 makan, lampu tetiba malap and kuar lagu happy birthday. With the disco light was on, waitress tu datang dari dapur and bring the cake to you. I could see that you are a bit shy but I hope that you are happy. After that, Ariel bagi hadiah tu kat you. A ring that I bought for you but I kept it locked in a box.

After that wonderful dinner, I drove you back home and promised to give you the combination code for the padlock later and I gave you on the day after. And the it happened !

my journey begins part 2

Ustaz : Alhamdulillah, mudah2an tercapai.

Ariel : Terima kasih ustaz. Doakan saya.

Ustaz : InsyaAllah.

And after a few minutes, you finished your prayer. And I am really happy to see your face again. A face that could changed me in just a short time. Changes to be a better man and a better Muslim, InsyaAllah.

I thought that I could continue talking to you later, tapi you need to go back home sbb ada orang call nak sewa bilik at your house. On the way back home, I said that maybe later we can meet again?

and you replied that "Sure". As we both have nothing to do on weekends as we are both SINGLE.

Dah sampai rumah you, I headed back home to Shah Alam. Macam2 benda bermain dalam fikiran, layakkah aku pada dia ya Allah? Bolehkah Engkau permudahkan jalan aku ya Allah? Mahukah dia pada aku ya Allah? and around 730pm, I reached home with whole lot of questions in my head.

Ambil wuduk and solat maghrib. Pas solat, I continue with baca Yaasin. Something that I left for almost a year before. Ya, Ariel mmg jahil dan tak baik before. But, the few hours time with you changed me. Ariel niatkan Yaasin tu supaya Allah permudahkan jalan Ariel. And I read it for a few times until Isya'.

A few msg before tido with you surely make my day. Thanks for that wonderful day dear.

my journey begins

bismillahirrahmanirrahim,

today i created this blog just to write my journey for love.

insyaAllah,akan ku tulis dan catat semua yang berlaku.

amin..

and it all starts on the 27th March 2010. I met you for the first time,only the two of us.

Ariel ingat lagi hari tu hari sabtu and after dapat your permission utk kuar bersama, i am so happy for it. Hari sabtu, ariel g kat umah and there was our first day out together. Mmg sesat la gak nak sampai kat situ. Tapi, berkat GPS n call, dapat gak sampai akhirnya.

After cakap da sampai, i waited for exactly 12minutes to see you came to me. And you are so lovely with little make up. Pada masa tu,takde anything pun rasa kat hati. Cuma as a friend. Then, we headed to Times Square.

Parking punya la payah, but we managed to get our spot (tgkat paling atas sekali :p)

Then, kita g jalan2 dalam tu. Hajat di hati nak tgk wayang, tapi manusia punya la ramai aritu. So, cancel our plan. Kita g makan jer kat kedai level 3 tu. It sure is better than to watch movie as I get to know you better.

Sambil makan, sambil kita kenal masing2. I am really comfortable talking to you. Kisah hidup masing2 kita cerita, kisah putus cinta dan semua nya. I have nothing to hide and so do you. And I could remember and will always remember your smile on that day.

It sure is a wonderful day for me. And then it all starts, you said, "ARIEL, DA MASUK WAKTU ASAR LA,JOM SOLAT". I don't know why, but I felt like it shocked me. That was the first time that a girl asked me to pray (Something that I don't usually do,shame on me).

Dalam hati, I felt like malu sangat. Kenapa sebelum ni aku jahil?takde langsung pikir kalau tetiba esok mati, apa jadi. And then we went to surau kat situ. That is the moment that Ariel solat sungguh2 dan berdoa, YA ALLAH,AKU DAH JUMPA APA YANG AKU CARI SELAMA NI YA ALLAH. AKU NAK DIA JADI YANG HALAL PADA AKU YA ALLAH. JADIKAN DIA ISTERI AKU YA ALLAH.

And luckily takde orang kat situ that I don't even realize I almost cried in my prayer for Allah. Nobody touched my heart like you do with a simple words "JOM SOLAT". After solat, I felt like I need to change and become a better man.

Abis je solat, Ariel turun kat surau perempuan and waited there. Sambil tunggu, Ariel bersembang dengan sorang ustaz, dia tanya " Da kahwin ke?" and I answered "Belum, saya baru jumpa orang yang saya suka hari ini dan dia tgh bersolat kat dalam".

Ustaz : Alhamdulillah, ikhlas kan hati, doa pada Allah minta permudah urusan. Tapi, jangan sampai hanyut dalam cinta ni. Syaitan tu ada di mana2.

Ariel : Ya Ustaz. Saya mmg mohon sangat supaya Allah mudahkan jalan.

(to be continued)..