My sms later was replied and she said that need me to online on night time that day. She asked me to accompany her to her friend's wedding. You should guess how I would react right? I am pleased,delighted,happy and straightly said yes.
The suffering of not meeting her for almost 5 months would come to an end. Saturday morning, went to Putrajaya and fetch her. If only I not yet sell my Mercedes,won't it be great? But, it's not the car, its the person that sits beside me is the most important thing for me.
We went to Alamanda first and bought "E" (her newly weds friend) a gift. I enjoy that moment. I really do. As I could talk to her and see her face when she don't look at me. How I wish she knows how much I care for her and love her.
Finished shopping, straightly went to Dewan Permata at Petronas's Training Institute for the ceremony. Meet her friend(s) and don't let go of my eyes for her. Takes a few pics with the couples and enjoys our meals. The food was great but she's the greatest.
Before leaving the ceremony, again meet the newly weds couple and wish them, we took picture too. How I wish that was my big day with her. On the way back I asked her whether she wants to meet my lovely Ayish, my eldest bro's son. And she said, YES. I am surprised, a good surprise it is. Went to Bukit Mahkota and see that my sister also went to my bro's house. I thought only me and my bro's family. But there it was, my eldest bro, my youngest sister and my sister.
My family was quite surprised as I never bring any girl to meet them as that's the sign that I truly into that girl. Introduce her to my family and me straightly went to perform my Zohor prayer. I prayed for Allah's blessing so that her heart would open for me. Finished praying, came out and meet all of them. I was a bit surprised that she mix well with them. Main attraction for that day is Ayish and Amani (my sis's daughter). We laughed at them and their jokes. What a pleasant day it was.
After few hour(s), it's time to send her home. Not the moment I was waiting for. But, it's time anyway. On the way back, I asked her a few things, realtionship and marriage. She's a bit open and not avoiding the topic as usual. She said that the time she planned maybe next year,end of the year. We talked about the hantaran and all sorts of things related.
I also asked her if there's somebody with enough money, want to propose to her earlier than next year, would she accept? She just smiled at me and said don't know. I also told her that I am truly into her. And only she just answer with her smile. Later, we arrived at her home and said goodbye. She also mentioned not to forget to text her sms.
Sent few sms and there goes my few days. Later on Monday, I saw her mother was online at Facebook and just greet her and sent her a msg to her inbox. She asked how I am doing and why didn't I came to her house for Hari Raya celebration. Also told her that we went to Si Gadis's friend's wedding. Her mother asked me when will that be my day? I answered her that I am waiting for her daughter's permission. And she said that I should try and talk to her daughter, as she don't objects it. I am so happy that she gave her permission.
Later, on Tuesday I chatted with Si Gadis's youngest sister and after few minutes, I told her sister to ask her mother that will it be okay if I sent my family to merisik/propose her daughter. She said that the decision is on Si Gadis's hand and will accept it if Si Gadis agreed. I told her that the date is 10.10.10.
Straightly sms Si Gadis and told her that thing. I also told her my wish to propose/merisik her. She said that she need time to perform Isthikharah first. I agreed as that's the best way.
Last night, was the night that I felt so small in front of Allah. Performed my Maghrib prayer and straightly Solat Hajat. I was shed in tears and cried when I am praying for Allah's help the moment I perform my solat hajat. The tears was so sudden and I would say that is the longest time of sujud I ever had. I cried and cried during my praying. Felt so small in front of Allah and need His help. Twice I perform my solat hajat and twice I did cried.
Amazingly, I felt so relieved after that. Like all my problems were gone. Went out for dinner and went to bank-in money that I promised to my mother for some kenduri of my brother taking his PMR soon. Back home, I cant believed what I did.
I SMSed my dad and told her that I proposed to a girl that I like and asked my parents to help perform solat hajat so that maybe with Allah's will, Si Gadis will accept me. And, smsed him all the things that she needs to know about this very special girl,how she changed me,why i chose her and her name.
THIS IS SOMETHING THAT I WONT TALK WITH MY PARENTS BEFORE, EVEN WHEN I WAS IN RELATIONSHIP FEW YEARS BACK. I SURE PUT ALL MY EGO AND TOLD THEM THIS. IT TOOK ME GREAT COURAGE TO DO THIS.
And as expected, my dad called later but I dont dare to answer it as it's not something normal to me to share my feeling towards a girl for my 26 years of life as their son. I know that only now they understand why I never showed any interest before when they gave hint for me to get married. I am sure that I am the only one in my family asked their help to pray for me when it comes to this proposed matter. Maybe they are proud of this, but I not dare to talk to them yet.
Again, this morning perform my Subuh and Solat hajat. Hope that everything is gonna be alright.
Please pray for me.
