status

people easily like me, but its hard for people to love me.

wake up at 4am, mengadu pada Allah. He knows the best. And,sampai di ofis about 7am. continue to read yasin, as there is nobody yet at the office. I dont know why but, my tears burst. Ariel, be strong. There's still hope. Umrah package seems not to expensive. Maybe I just need to go there and ask for Allah's help?

mungkin?

Pelangi ku. Dari jauh ku lihat, ku renung dan ku amati. Nampak ceria, nampak indah. Duri, tanah, selut, debu, basah dan kering aku tak peduli.. demi pelangi yang mengindahkan hidupku dan membuat ku khayal seketika. Hanya kau pelangi yang satu dan ku mahu.

Namun, bila aku nampak dan dekati dengan pelangi tu, muncul pula awan hitam jahat tiba2. pelangi tersepit antara aku dan awan jahat. titik hujan turun, dengan guruh dan kilat.

mungkin, mungkin awan itu sentiasa dekat dengan pelangi. tetapi, awan hitam jahat selalu menghilangkan seri pelangi. pelangi yang cantik dan ceria, menjadi hilang.

dan aku tergapai2. perlu kah aku terbang ke langit dan buktikan pada pelangi betapa aku menanti dirinya hadir dalam hidupku. menanti di balik hujan dan takkan berhenti mengejar dirinya.

dan kini, bila hampir tangan ku menggapai pelangi dan menikmati keindahan itu, pelangi ku diganggu kenangan lama dan takut akan awan hitam itu. Dan larilah ia sejenak di balik langit yang luas. Tapi, pelangi itu mengatakan aku amat disayangi dan berharap ku sentiasa menantinya. Ku meminta padaMu Tuhan yang punya kuasa, hadirkanlah pelangi ku. Moga pelangi mengindahkan hari2 ku.

-- nukilanku utk mu, wahai pelangi ku.
Ariel
21072011 Shah Alam.

Pelangiku

Kadang-kadang Allah sembunyikan matahari,
Dia datang kan petir dan kilat..
kita tertanya-tanya kemane hilang nye matahari..
rupa2nye Allah memberikan kita pelangi..

and I think I have found my pelangi.. Pray that this is not just illusion or dream.. I hope that, it'll be forever.. Amin..

jangan bilang tidak

ku pernah punya cinta namun kini ku sedang suka kamu
cintaku dulu tlah kubuang jauh kini ku ingin kamu

ku pernah menyendiri di sini ku akan terasa sepi
walaupun bibir penuh gelak tawa namun hatiku sepi

jangan bilang tidak bila kita belum mencoba
siapa yang tahu akan sama hatimu dan juga hatiku
banyak yang bercinta bertahun-tahun putus juga
kuharapkan dengan dirimu walaupun singkat pendekatan
cinta kita kan abadi

ku pernah punya cinta namun kini ku sedang suka kamu
cintaku dulu tlah kubuang jauh kini ku ingin kamu

jangan bilang tidak bila kita belum mencoba
siapa yang tahu akan sama hatimu dan juga hatiku
banyak yang bercinta bertahun-tahun putus juga
kuharapkan dengan dirimu walaupun singkat pendekatan

jangan bilang tidak waktu dicium aku bingung
namun dada ini bergetar
makanya sungguh aku mohon
jangan bilang tidak


the lyrics are just nice..it sure is applicable for those who are still longing for their old ones..give chance to the person that love you..
mood : almost happy :)

hati,tolong sabar

hai hati, tolong sabar. sabar dengan dugaan. banyak benda yang terjadi. banyak yang perlu diberi perhatian. banyak hati untuk dijaga.

went back to hometown last week. Got two wedding invitations to attend. First is Ein+Lieza and second is Hanif+Hajar. Congratulations to both of the newly weds couples. At Ein's house, met few friends from my high school. All of them are already married and some are expecting their wife to deliver their babies. It was sure a great event as I met all of them and shared stories during our school times. Then, by 4pm went to Hanif+Hajar's ceremony. It was also awesome. Both of them looks happy and tired :)
Spend about 1Hour++ there, and the same question popped out.

Hajar : Hang bila nak kawin?
Me : Nanti lah Hajar, takdak orang lagi la ni.

The same answer I gave to all people asking me about that. Even to mum and dad. On the night, went to Joned's cafe with my family as I want to treat them dinner. And along the way, Ayah kept asking about my status and I just smile. He advised me to get married soon. Ayah, if you knew what I have been through, maybe you'll understand.

The next day, had a chat with my dad regarding my late grandpa's house. It was a mess and I said that I want to cut all the grass there. Dad said he'll bought the Brush Cutter with me later. By 12pm, got our Brush Cutter and straight I went to do my job. Alhamdulillah, even it took me until 430pm, I managed to complete the job. There's a teardrop when I see my grandpa's house and remembering all the memories with him. And now, my tears also burst when I write about him. I miss my grandparents so much.

This morning, woke up at 5am. Last night few things run through my heads. And I am determined on performing Solat Tahajjud from today onwards. Let Allah do His part and make me more peaceful. It was an embarrassment as I never performed Solat Tahajjud and need to google it to know how to performed it. Found a video by Ustaz Hassan Din on the topic and alhamdulillah, I finally had the chance to do it. Funny thing is, I am more relax and feels like all the problems gone. Finished the Solat Tahajud and Subuh around 6am. Hang my clothes, tidy up my rooms, make breakfast and straight away come to work. Let's hope that today is better than yesterday.

Dear Allah,you know the best for me.

Everything

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Listening to the song, I know this is my song. The song that I'll sing to you future wife. You owe me your smile. Thanks Allah for Him that I'll meet my future wife,somewhere sometimes and somehow that only He knows.

Believe in Allah's love, everything will be okay.

Everything - Lifehouse.

Find Me Here
Speak To Me
I want to feel you
I need to hear you
You are the light
That's leading me
To the place where I find peace again.

You are the strength, that keeps me walking.
You are the hope, that keeps me trusting.
You are the light to my soul.
You are my purpose...you're everything.

How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

You calm the storms, and you give me rest.
You hold me in your hands, you won't let me fall.
You steal my heart, and you take my breath away.
Would you take me in? Take me deeper now?

How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

Cause you're all I want, You're all I need
You're everything,everything
You're all I want your all I need
You're everything, everything.
You're all I want you're all I need.
You're everything, everything
You're all I want you're all I need, you're everything, everything.

And How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

sesak

no matter how lonely it gets..i'll keep walking :)

its been so long since i have the time to post new entry. I am too busy with work and class. No time to hangout with friends,like i used to do before. Met few peoples, being in few problems but still have the time to look into the skies at night.

kerja = :\

love = :-/

mba = ;-]

i am thinking of changing from MBA to EMBA. for the sake of completing my study earlier than MBA. I can save almost 1.5years by doing so.

Pray that I found my gadis in the nearest time. 11/11/11 is coming soon. the date is there, the candidate none. haha