now or later

It has been a very busy week for me last week. I need some vacation..Please.. Ya ampun..

On Saturday, had a registration day for my MBA. I am back as a student, again! Hope that Allah will blessed me with all the good things that I can have in my study. Please give me good health and spaces for me to balance my work and study. Went to register with my friends, both of them are studying MBA also. One is my student and one is my undergrad's friend. My student quickly offers her help to find a girl for me. Haha.. 

Student : Cik..Cik...tgk yg tu..ok tak? cantik..pakai tudung,putih..nak tak?

Me : (senyum)..ok..amik la..g la ngorat dia utk saya..boleh?

Student : ngok la cik ni..

We : laugh together...

She's among the student who always spend times with me, gossiping most of the times :) So,we kinda close and that's why she could jokes about it. After finished the registration process, head back home.

Later that evening, went back to my hometown. Bad thing is my little sister are already on her way back to UKM. So, dont have time to catch things up with her. I cant sleep all the time like I used to when traveling by bus as I had to take care of my bag. Some cash for opening my company's account. That's the reason I went back to hometown. Business matter. Arrived around 12am and after that straight to bed.

Next sunday morning I just spend my time with my family and stay home. Visit my grandpa and massage him and talks a little. He's not the same person he was. Now, he could only lie down and just staring or sometime chatting with us. Ya Allah, please have mercy on him.. Later that afternoon, my friend from Motorola came to our house. My brother is a freelance photographer and did my friend's wedding photography. Catch up all the things I missed in Motorola and met also with his wife. I knew them both, so it was not so awkward talking to his wife. Luckily he get married, even at the age of 30 :) hope mine will be sooner than him..hehe

On Monday, went to HSBC Alor Setar to set up company's account. No wonder it is an international bank. Their service was excellent. Not like other bank. RM10,000 min to open up account. I just put RM10,250 (no money as the cars not yet arrive in Port Klang). Hoping that my business will be successful later. Later that evening, had some talk with my dad. And I was quite shy of it.

Ayah : Bang teh macam mana la ni?

me : macam mana ayah? macam biasa la

ayah : tak..macam mana calon?jumpa dah ka?kalau dak,ayah nak cari lagi.

me : haha.ingat apa.macam dulu la.takdak lagi berkenan kat hati.tgk la nnt.

ayah : tak pa la.tgk tu tgk la.nak cari tak?bukan ayah suruh cari perempuan,ayah suruh cari ISTERI.

me : isteri tu bukan perempuan ka ayah ? (laugh)

ayah : isk..main2 pulak. end.

It's not that I dont understand him. But, I just want to have enough money first. And, I waited if there's another kind of si gadis out there. The one who could show that she care more of Allah than other people. The one who could ask me to perform prayer first before other things when going out together. 

p/s : can i put it in Mudah website? vacancy for future wife..haha

thursday evening

Around 530pm,went to Pak Li with few friends. As I have not yet perform my Asar prayer,quickly go to the prayer room. After perform my 'wudhuk', get ready to pray.

Suddenly, there goes the "It's all about you songs" by McFly on my phone. There's a call from an unsaved number. Thinking it was one of my clients/friends, I answered it. 

Girl : Assalamualaikum awak.

Me : Waalaikumsalam..Sapa ni eyh? Maaf,tak save ur number.

Girl : Cuba awak teka..Dah lupa saya eyh? (gelak2 kecil)

Me : (thinking hard who the real caller is and i quickly recognized the laugh).. jap2,rasanya cam kenal..pelat utara,gelak2 camtu..haaa..kenal dah..awak ni xxxx tu kan?

Girl : owh..ingat lagi eyh?bagus2..awak,sihat ke?lama tak dengar kan?

me : yeah..mmg lama..dalam 3-4 tahun kan?awak apa khabar?tetiba call ni,ada apa2 ke? (smiling to myself remembering our first time meeting each other)

girl : awak..saya nak ajak awak ni..awak leh tak datang kenuri saya 18hb ni di Penang?

Me : wahh...da lama tak contact tiba2 ajak kenuri kawin ni?siapa awak punya bakal suami?

and she told me her story..dia akan berkahwin dengan seorang duda.and I was like,what??? it surprised me like,REALLY??and asked her,about her decision.and she said that the bachelor that she met all are scumbags,loser and heart-breaker. that's the reason for her marriage. it was like a drama for me. A girl lose hope with all the singles and lastly turn to a widower. She said that she thought of me before accepting the guy's proposal but she was afraid and embarrassed to call me and get in touch. She did broke my heart before. But, I am over it long time ago as it's long time ago,3years already. 

We kept talking for nearly 40mins and told me about how unsure she is of the marriage but there's no turning back. Later that night, I saw her online and kept telling her on how she should accepted the guy with all her heart and my wish for her marriage would be a success. I meant every single words of advice that I said to her, with all my heart. And, there's a line from her that shocked me..she wrote that :

SAYA TETAP SAYANG AWAK..

I appreciated her thoughts but just kept wishing her happiness in her decision. Its no turning point for her. She might just live happily and take care of her future life.

The word of "Saya Tetap Sayang Awak" do surprised me and it kept me thinking for a few minutes. I got few things I learned from my chat with her ;

1) appreciate the people who loves u

2) dont be afraid to express your love

3) just leave back what ever past as past, life goes on. appreciate the memory that you used to have

There goes my day..

But, also got something that angers me. My agent said that there's a miscommunication of the Mercedes C200K and they bought me the 1.8L engine instead of the 2.0L engine. I was so mad at first as this thing shouldn't be happening as 1.8L engine won't give me big profits. After 30mins, I called him and said that I would just accepted the C200K and go on with the small profits rather than no profits at all. Maybe only RM15k - RM20k if I am lucky to get. It sure is not a good business deal. The profit margin of the other car,C240 also not big. But, I will accept every profit that I could get,rather than no profit.

A4 paper sample also received and will meet the buyer this weekend. Let's hope that we'll have a deal. If the deal is on, I would have roughly USD2500 per container and might get RM330k in the future deal (40 containers). Pray for my success.

Packed with busy schedule.. Going to Kelantan later (havent decided the date) to met Fith, asking for his time to teach me Forex (he made USD48k in past 8days).. Going to Indonesia if the deal is on with the A4 paper.. Registering for MBA on 18th Dec.. Going back hometown (no date yet)..

Oh my future wife, where are u? Are you out there somewhere? SMS me dear.. but,how do she sms me when I dont know who she is :)

p/s : haven't contacted with si gadis for quite some times..is she happy now? :)

dunia..cinta..segalanya..

so busy with life..so busy with business preparation..so busy with proposal (matchmaking)..

1) i have no time not even for myself..urusan duniawi ja banyaknya..mudah2an tak jadi lalai dan lupa Allah..

2) malu pada diri sendiri..doa2 sesudah solat masih dalam proses nak hafal..layakkah aku jadi imam pada bakal isteriku dan anak2 aku?terangkanlah hati hamba Mu ini ya Allah..

3) took ayish to Alamanda and spend time with him..jalan2 and bawa ke McD lagi..kebetulan dekat  dengan MPH,masuk tgk2 apa yang ada.he wants Ben 10's book but none found..so,instead i bought for myself,tafsir al-quran,sbb harga murah and also percubaan nak paham apa la selama ni dok baca dalam solat..ya Allah,terangkan hatiku..

4) ayah and mak da kalut2 tanya about my status.and I would say it's because of me? Previously, I was hoping that they would pray that Si gadis will accept my proposal,but she found someone else.And since then, I am not talking about girl(s) with them again. Sorry ayah and mak,nanti2 ada la tu.. I am working my way there

5) Ayah did asked me to meet this girl, a doctor from Hospital Sultanah Bahiyah. Called me few times and keep asking to meet her. Did met her and just respecting my dad. Cakap kat ayah yang I felt nothing special when I look into her eyes. Back home, talked with my grandma that night. She asked me, how's the meeting. I said, "Ntah la Tok,takdak rasa apa".. She replied, "kalau betui dia tu jodoh kita,kita tgk dia rasa senang,suka..kalau takdak rasa tu,jangan".. I just smiled and thanked her for the advice.

6) Yesterday Ayah called me and said that he found another candidate, a teacher. I dont know who she is and ayah did asked for my email to send her picture. So high tech of my dad.hehe. And, received it. She looks like a real muslimah to me. Tudung labuh and tutup dada. Ciri2 yang payah nak jumpa,kecuali seorang kawan aku yang dari sekolah lagi, Adeq. Tahniah!

6) My grandpa da sakit2 teruk. cant manage himself and ayah brought him to leave together with us. So sad, he is just like a child. Menangis if datang lambat time dia panggil. But, dia masih ingat ayat2 Quran, wish that I could be like him. Ya Allah, jgn lah kau uji dia dengan sakit. Ringan sakit dia dan bagilah dia mati dengan senang jika sudah sampai ajalnya.

7) Business is still in progress

     a) car -- Mercedes C240 already shipped,AP applied and just waiting to arrive at port klang. Mercedes C200K yet to wait for shipping document.

     b) paper -- contacted my partner in Indonesia and asking for samples. wait for samples to arrive and show to client. If client happy, will proceed with agreement and order. InsyaAllah.

     c) online business -- sangat sibuk dan belum berkesempatan mahu beli bahan jualan. maybe next week will go with my partner. Pray for our success.

8) Please pray that I'll succeed in life and akhirat.

Ya Allah, murahkanlah rezeki ku.buka kanlah pintu2 rezeki Mu seluas-luasnya pada diriku dan keluarga ku. jika jauh,dekatkanlah. jika haram,halalkanlah. jika di dalam bumi,keluarkan lah. Ya Allah, Kau temukanlah jodoh yang terbaik pada ku. Percepatkanlah jodoh ku ya Allah. Selamatkan lah aku,keluarga ku,ibu bapaku, kawan2 ku dan semua umat Islam dunia dan akhirat. Amin..