hati,tolong sabar

hai hati, tolong sabar. sabar dengan dugaan. banyak benda yang terjadi. banyak yang perlu diberi perhatian. banyak hati untuk dijaga.

went back to hometown last week. Got two wedding invitations to attend. First is Ein+Lieza and second is Hanif+Hajar. Congratulations to both of the newly weds couples. At Ein's house, met few friends from my high school. All of them are already married and some are expecting their wife to deliver their babies. It was sure a great event as I met all of them and shared stories during our school times. Then, by 4pm went to Hanif+Hajar's ceremony. It was also awesome. Both of them looks happy and tired :)
Spend about 1Hour++ there, and the same question popped out.

Hajar : Hang bila nak kawin?
Me : Nanti lah Hajar, takdak orang lagi la ni.

The same answer I gave to all people asking me about that. Even to mum and dad. On the night, went to Joned's cafe with my family as I want to treat them dinner. And along the way, Ayah kept asking about my status and I just smile. He advised me to get married soon. Ayah, if you knew what I have been through, maybe you'll understand.

The next day, had a chat with my dad regarding my late grandpa's house. It was a mess and I said that I want to cut all the grass there. Dad said he'll bought the Brush Cutter with me later. By 12pm, got our Brush Cutter and straight I went to do my job. Alhamdulillah, even it took me until 430pm, I managed to complete the job. There's a teardrop when I see my grandpa's house and remembering all the memories with him. And now, my tears also burst when I write about him. I miss my grandparents so much.

This morning, woke up at 5am. Last night few things run through my heads. And I am determined on performing Solat Tahajjud from today onwards. Let Allah do His part and make me more peaceful. It was an embarrassment as I never performed Solat Tahajjud and need to google it to know how to performed it. Found a video by Ustaz Hassan Din on the topic and alhamdulillah, I finally had the chance to do it. Funny thing is, I am more relax and feels like all the problems gone. Finished the Solat Tahajud and Subuh around 6am. Hang my clothes, tidy up my rooms, make breakfast and straight away come to work. Let's hope that today is better than yesterday.

Dear Allah,you know the best for me.